Unraveling...tears
by Carol Cunningham
February 4, 2019
Tears came today....twice actually.
From whence, I do not know.
They just appeared...touched by something.
What was the first?
Oh, yes, when I handled some papers.
The questionnaire triggered the tears.
What was the second?
Email words - cache and browser.
Tears and nervous laughter entwined.
Where is the root of these tears?
They responded to history.
And, for sure, they know something.
It was strange in this manner.
Was it fear, I think so.
Was it ineptness, I think so, too.
How does this matter?
I'm strong, even fearless for most.
Yet, weak as I have ever felt.
Frail, yes; that's the word.
Two experiences today,
Brought me to frail.
Look at these triggers.
Wahy this response?
I hear, "Unraveling of my life!"
The golf ball rubber band inners.
The yarn after tumbling loose.
The years entwined in incidents.
Yes, God's unraveling plan!
Pulling away the unnecessary.
Revealing the important.
Knots and tangle don't give way easily.
They snap back like elastics.
Don't want to look, but I must.
Tears spoke today...twice!
I cannot ignore this.
I won't ignore His leading!
I will pursue, no matter the pain.
The cost is too great to keep it there.
I want freedom...total freedom.
Uncharted territory.
